The Passage of Time
People measure time differently and with things like months, days, years. Exact measurements that we all agree on and that we can easily visualize. But the markers that have resonated with me more since my recent breakup have actually been far less precise. Today is the first day I am changing the paper towel roll since my breakup and it hit me that it has been exactly 1 paper towel role since being with my ex. It hit me harder because it also took me so much longer to make it through that roll than it ever has and I was vividly reminded that two people go through more consumables than 1.
On paper, this is a great thing. My paper towel lifetime has now been doubled meaning less effort going down to my storage unit to replenish it and less money on paper towel expenses. But instead pulling that last sheet off of the roll made me pause and triggered a flood of emotions. Today marks 1 paper towel roll since my breakup and I’m finding some days are much easier than others.